Haix..sad and boring day..On Sunday, went down to HQ for my AFA exam..Had to do CPR, Bandaging and Theory test!! For the theory test, got 16/20 for the first atempt..so dun need to retake le..Phew!! But seriously, it was extremely difficult..hahaha..And i realised some methods taught by our instructors are wrong lor..Argh!! But learn a new way bout how to save a pregnant lady who is choking..Really really fast!! Then after that, walked from HQ to marina square..Walked around for 1/2 hr then took train back to TPY..Met up with hilary and Zhu xi to buy things for teachers..In the end, we went to buy woodcraft construction set..ltr YC came to help us do too.. Sat at kiddy palace there to do the thingy..after 2hours, suddenly got security guard come shoo us away!! EVIL..After 2hours later then come shoo us away?!?!? After that went back home..Haix..


Today is Happy teachers' Day!! Had 2 periods for english and after that played floorball till 11am..Haix..Lost 2 matches but won 1 match..hahhaa..at least got win 1!! not bad alr..After eating..everyone went to the hall for the teachers' day concert..Was really fun..But throughout the whole thing..my back was like so suan!?!? ARound 1 plus, went back to primary school..Saw many familiar faces but forgotten their names..Lol.. Some people were just waving their hands just for the sake of it..Hahaha..saw Yi ru then went back home with her.. REached home, realised my socks got blood..then i knew the skin of my feet has opened up and..really very big patch lor..Dun dare to pull out the whole skin.. Oh ya!! when i was in my primary school..saw someone from Beatty who looked like Jeremin in 3E3 now..Probably its the big brother.. =D




Sheep, You did a great job in playing floorball today.. Nice one!! =D Stay happy.. Hope your leg is ok cos i believe someone whacked you on the shin ba..Take care..

brandz.panguin.

Haix..a very boring day just went by..Had a maths remedial in the morning..Was kinda of late by 10mins..After that..went back straight home..Realised my auntie was coming..so immediately helped me buy breakfast..haha..Feeling so evil..Watched TV till 1pm then rested on the bed..planned to rest but in the end sleep for 3hours!! argh! wasted my precious time..

Hahaha..i just realised tmr is my AFA exam..scanned thru the FA manual and notes..super worried for it..Pls bless me that i can pass it!! Haix..worst thing is got theory worksheet..Scared to see the officers in HQ tmr..Nvm ba..will try to get over with it..



SOmetimes when you write bout you getting pissed off with other people in your post..Im really worried that i have offended you in some ways ..But if i had..then im really sorry..



Shall end it here..Nights..

brandz.panguin.

Hahaha..today right after school..went straight to Causeway Point with Naufal and Yang Chung..walked around for at least 1hour..planned to get something for Nurul!! then went back to school for sjab training..So Sad dun have footdrill today!! If not the day would be nicer..Supposedly training start at 2.30pm but in the end reached bck at 3pm!! hahaha..Then went to netball court to see anybody there..then realised GB room open ma..Thought they only have training on Saturday..then asked YC go ask lor while i went to change in the room..Hahaha..after that i was playing something that was very high pitched..hahaa..Ear pain..Went to Lai lai homeroom for the first aid course..apparently this time round was kind of interesting lor..tried to treat my juniors..

Hey..im seriously getting pissed off..My juniors want me to treat them better..but sorry uh..no matter what..i still have to enforce discipline as much as i can..

To some of my juniors, I can treat you all better but i still have to keep up with my principles..If you all are not happy with my method..Just tell me straight in my face..I wont mind..Still not happy with me, quit ba and you can join GB..i wont force..Since they have a good senior like Ho Yang who cares for her juniors, join them ba..Unlike me..

You have to tell others..and they say that im a total failure of being a senior..FINE..I will do things as it should be going and im gone..Next time when you become a senior whereby for instance you r a training head and you have studies to cope with..planning for training plans..Try to be one day..Its tough..Let's see what the next batch will be saying to you..Tell me how would you feel if someone say u r a total failure in being a senior?!?!? It may not hurt you physically but it does alittle emotionally..I know GB got seniors like Ho yang who care for her juniors..Unlike SJab rite..But probably all their juniors are disciplined and able to follow orders rite?!?! What bout us!?! You think i like to keep shouting at you all isit?!?! Haix..Dun know what to sat to you two le..Cant be bothered..Im trying my best to treat you all better..but if u dun appreciate it..FINE..I should be heartless then..Im not being petty..but it has to be like this from now on..


During Training period..went for a break..saw Mr Tan abseiling down from the 4th storey bridge to the quadrangle..He was super swift and steady..shiok!! Hahaha =D Should salute to Mr Tan..




Sheep, really envy you alot..see your juniors all love you so much..'chemical reaction' between you and ur juniors really produce something good out of it..unlike mine..dun even appreciate what i have done for them.. Should salute to you too!! Hope your eye has recovered..Take care.. Stay happy always!! =D

brandz.panguin.

Haix..Today first thing in the morning during PE lesson..sheep got hit in the eye by a floorball..hope she is alright le ba..then hitler brought her to go wash her eye with cold water..Then i was damn angry with with yoong leng..ask why he have to lift up his stick so high..and some people just have to poke their nose into other people's business..and scolded me!! What the hell lor..Just asking Yoong Leng things..and does he have to exaggerate till like that?!?!? pls lor..I also offend you in any way..is there a problem with caring for a friend..Was so pissed off that i just went to sit under the tree..Hahaha..at least Eng Sheng come and talk to me..Thanks..

Had A maths test today..was kind of difficult..Dunno whether will pass with flying colours anot..ANd Tmr got BIO test!! argh! haven study a single thing..omg..Oh ya!! WOrst thing is that today the J ran pass our class and threw a red tile into our classroom..Everyone was shocked Lor!! IDIOT...And Sheep and Donkey was near the window..luckily never hit them..PHew!! Hit them..i surely go find that J alr..Hahahaha..most funniest thing is that he came and i asked him, "DID YOU THROW THIS INTO MY CLASSROOM!?!!" and he replied,'NO..' Then after that i asked him.."WHERE DID YOU PICK UP THIS TILE FROM??" ...and he said, 'FROM THE TOILET..' Isnt this so ironic?!?!? Lol.. Still haven scold him yet for what he done a few days ago..

Anyway shall go study for my bio test le!! Wish for a Peaceful day!! =D Wait..cant..TMR GOT SJAB TRAINING WHICH IS ALL GONNA BE ABOUT FIRST AID!! SHIT!!



SHeep, hope your eye is alright!! Get well soon..And btw congrats on being officially sergeant!! =D Stay happy always..JYJY for your bio test tmr..GOOd luck..

brandz.panguin.

I finally knew that good things never last long..Haix..Apparently good things may last for probably 1-2hrs and the worst thing is that unpleasant things may even last for more than hours..Was kind of happy 2 days ago..But suddenly yesterday during Chemistry lesson..My day have been spoilt by TWO people..Argh!! I also never do anything to you two..suddenly give me plenty lots of attitude..Haix..You think im a person who you just play around in your hands isit?!?!?! Its like as though one day you can rise from the east..then suddenly next day rise from the west..Whats The Hell you want with me?!?!!?! I didnt offend you at all..Pls lor..if you unhappy with me..just come straight and talk to me in the face..I dun care how the hell you gonna talk to me..as long as i have a clear conscience..As long as you dun resort to violence..i wont too..I dont understand your problem..If you are trying to make me jealous by doing things to let me see..im really dumbfounded..whats the point..

Haha..Today skipped VE and physics because have to go to TPY NPC for some crime prevention course and apparently i thought it was like gonna be a big event where there will be exhibits and many other stuffs and thought its gonna take for hours..But when we reach there..Had an orientation by two srgnt officer..and it lasted for 45mins!! The officer dismissed us after that..All of us were super shocked k!! Hahaha..then went around the NPC..was very fascinated..After that..Had some debrief bout Sun AFA!! argh!! Die le..must study hard for it..After that took bus from inter with KK, Yc and Khairul..Haix..during school, my day has been spoilt..still want make my day more worst..SHIT.. Then in the end, they told me something about what THe IdiOtic J said during his lessons..Was really angry bout it..Tmr if i see him..i confirm will go and scold him k!! Pls lor..CAnt he just stop saying and doing things that will hurt my one of my best friends?!?!? Last time find him quite pitiful when eating alone..but now, im begining to hate him k!! The things that he said or done really pissed me off badly..apparently what he did was related to one of my best friend..Sometimes if i could get violent..i really cant control it if i heard it..Must make sure he is accountable of what he said or done..I dun care..


Hahaha..My SJab is time for a new change!! This friday is an inevitable meeting..which the departments cant run away from..Must discuss how to treat juniors well..and other stuffs..HAHAHa~



Sheep, i believe Today is your promotion day ba..CONGRATS UH BECOMING SRGNT!! HAHAHA..really envy your promotion..Continue to strive hard ya!! JYJY!! Next time must become GB WO.. =D but always rmbr to stay happy!! haha..

brandz.panguin.

Hmm..let's see..finally realised that once a person is extremely tired..he can even sleep in any position with the TV on..hahha..Slept for 4hours 30mins..Had to go Blk 18 for the observance ceremony and apparently why cant they do the ceremony probably where the floor is dry and there's air con?? and worst thing is that the place is crammed..Haix..When i reached there like 7plus..my shirt was already drenched and tucked out cos i was like running from the front to the back of pei chun primary school to show teacher the route..hahaha.. When the ceremony start..we were told to stand in a straight line and it was already so crammed..and they still add in more children in front of us la!! Argh!! When we taking the pledge..That Giant J had to say something which was really embarrassing to our school reputation..but luckily he nvr wear school uni..Phew! In the end, had to follow him wherever he go so that he wont go disturb people..somehow me and friends are like bodyguards to him..even when he went to toilet..we followed him!! Scared he touched other people..ahhaha.. Had to take care of my juniors too..luckily they very obedient..and i saw Mr Chia!! Hahaha..didnt knew he was a grassroot leader..Talked to him..Hope to see him somemore..Hahaha..After 10am, planned to wait for Mr chia to take prize..but in the end too long then went back first..but the most interesting thing is i went to eat with yang chung and the Giant J at J8..seriously you will be shocked at how he eats his food..hahaha..sitting in front of him somemore!! =D anyway have to go my grandma house..bye!!



Sheep, i really wish to know how you treat your juniors..cos my treatment is bad..need some help..anyway sutdy hard!! stay happy always!! =D

brandz.panguin.

Haix..im really wondering to myself..DO I ALWAYS SEE THINGS IN A VERY SERIOUS MANNER?? Have i always take things too seriously?!?!?!

Talking bout CCA first..sometimes i really wonder whether have i been treating my juniors well..ever since i have become the Training Head, I HAVE TOLD MYSELF THAT I CANT LET THINGS BE HAPPENING THE WAY IT HAS BEFORE..But its just as though that in order for some things to happen..you have sacrifice some other things.. Now i really understand how it feels like to take care of a whole big squad..Its really difficult..Apparently, last wednesday..i made someone cried during footdrill..Haix..Its really difficult to appoint people around..as when people r not appointed..they would be unhappy with me..Im not totally prepared to face enemies when i attend for Sjab!! I dun like to dull faces when i take over..just dun like it.. Looking at other UGs..once i was talking to Samantha..i was very envious that practically their seniors are treating the juniors well..The question "Have you been treating your juniors well??" really struck me.. Have I?!?!?! Another thing that struck me was that a teacher asked me how come like this?? I really wish that one day, every thing will go smoothly whereby people from my batch dun argue with me..and all the juniors are having a big smile on their face..THAT WOULD BE WONDERFUL.. But my goal now is to improve on their footdrill skills but most importantly, ensure that they r not unhappy with me.. Probably, i will talk to them and asked bout their feelings..I wont mind even if they gonna scold me with vulgarities..Im totally prepared i hope.. Perhaps from now on, i shouldnt shout anymore.. Haix..


Secondly, FRIENDS..Probably some of them do feel im such a idiot..IM SORRY..Am i a person who takes things seriously that cant take jokes or fun?? To someone, i really wish things between us can be much better..apparently when i see you..im just stunned and cant say anything..my mind just will just become blank..I wanna talk to you since weeks..but i know you are not free..nvm..SOrry..But can we talk one of the days during the holis?? There are some things that cannot be dragged along with the time..Pls..IM REALLY SORRY ABOUT LAST TIME..To all my friends, if i have said anything or done bad to you..im really sorry..


Ever since that time, i really still wonder am i still your most hated person..I DUN WISH TO BE AT ALL...Have your trust in me disappeared?? Haix..its not some thing that i wanna happen..I really hope things between us can be as good as last time when you asked me to help you take soya bean during NDP..

Tmr have the National Day observance ceremony..Have to go!! and apparently that Giant is going even though he is not a UG member..Dunno where he got the consent forms la..Haix..Have to prevent him from doing things..




SHeep!! Jia you jia you for your studies and CCA..good luck..and all the best..Study hard but rmbr to always stay happy.. Take care.. =D

brandz.panguin.

ATROCIOUS DAY..early morning alr got so many troubles happening..haix..really down and upset these few days..due to some matters..still trying ways to solve them k..

Got back most of my results and they r kind of borderline for most..EOY is coming soon..must really prepare for it le..SERIOUSLY physics and CHinese was the worst like shit..Must really buck up k..really disappointed in myself.. Tmr still got taekwondo le..scared injured my hip agn..

Today did some chemistry crystals and they were very fun to do..among all the three sciences..i tink chem is the nicest lor..hahaha..tmr going back to the lab to get my crystals!! hahaha..


anyway, tmr gonna be tired le..



SHeep, jia you jia you for ur studies!! Good luck..all the best..Stay happy always k!! =D

brandz.panguin.

Haix..One more paper to go!! E maths...

Among all the triple science..probably gonna fail physics badly lor!! So difficult..Not trying to be sarcastic but seriously..if im able to pass uh..the sun would rise from th west..hahaha..nvm ba..dun really care le..learn from my mistakes ba..if i fail by at least one or two marks..im still satisfied..Chemistry uh..was able to do it ba..confident to pass but not sure will anot..confused..Biology..actually got 26/40!! Then teacher didnt see properly then have to minus marks k!! So irritating..Her lesson was the worst yesterday..had to fight back against her bout some class punctuality..but its not really our students fault..like she said, the teacher before her lesson must eat up other people's lesson time..but ironically, she said she wont let us off early too..isnt it the same as she eat up other people's time too?!?!?! So bo liao..

Also not a "man" of his words..we persuaded the teacher to postpone the class test to Tuesday..and she agreed..Then in the end..the teacher just tel us that she gonna do it on monday..Wad is this sia?!?! MOnday..we have E maths test for goodness sake!! Argh!! Cant stand her seriously..



Sheep, One more test to go!! Jia You Jia You k!! U can do it de!! GOOD LUCK...all the best..take care..Stay happy always!! =D U surely can pass well for e maths de..

brandz.panguin.

Haix..physics can go down the drain le..SUPER DUPER DIFFICULT K!! Argh!!

Tmr mother tongue and Chemistry..Haix..Must JYJY le!!







Sheep, JYJY for tmr Tests!! GOOD LUCK ya!! All the Best!! U can do it de.. =D
RMBR TO STAY HAPPY ALWAYS K!! =D

brandz.panguin.

I really hope things between us will be much better..


I do not wanna be someone that u hate anymore..the feeling is not nice at all..

Stay happy always!! JYJY for common test!! GOOD LUCK..

brandz.panguin.

YEAH!!! Its National Day! Happy birthday Singapore!!~

Hahahaha..if we could turn back time..by now..i would have been at Suntec resting..preparing for the final parade..Hahaha..Really miss those KFC and Pizza hut foods that i ate there..and The Soya Bean and Milo (Which can cause ppl to have diarrhoea if we drink both together..argh!!) Thinking of those good memories..it was really worth it..IF ONLY I COULD TURN BACK TIME..MAybe next time..when i go army..probably can participate the parade..haahha..shiok!! =D


Anyway Happy Birthday Singapore!!~~~




Sheep, JYJYJY for common tests!! All The Best.. GOOD LUCK =D Stay happy always!!

brandz.panguin.

Until now..when i thought of wad had happened recently..i really do feel bad for you and ur juniors..i know they are practically just unfair you all..somehow im still angry with them bout the whole matter..IM REALLY SORRY.. I know you r not the only one angry..i know ur people too..

I really envy YTSS k!! Apparently, all the UGs in that school are able to participate in their school parade la..unlike ours!! If our school can be like theirs..they day might have been much better..


to someone, i really wish to get back with you like last time..but i doubt you will ever wanna it agn..cos apparently someone else have alr taken my place..Haix..i cant force it anyway..so ya..i just wanna wish you to be happy always!! Probably you will be much happier now than last time..Maybe for you..you probably have forgotten bout the those days and get on with life...but for me, i will forever keep those beautiful memories in my heart...I may be hurt by wad happen that time..but for now..i just have to adapt to it..and my only wish is that you will be able to find ur happiness and stay happy..i just dun wanna you to be hurt physically or emotionally..you may ignore when i ask you questions..i wont mind.. IM REALLY SORRY IF I HAVE DONE ANYTHING BAD TO YOU..pls forgive me..i really wish you wont hate me anymore..

I just wanna 3requests from you is that:
1. Can i have a short talk with you privately??
2. I really do hope that in school..we r able to be best friends..where we will be able to smile and talk to each other politely...(i wanna remove the hostilty between us..)
3. Always stay happy and healthy ya!! =D



I really hope that we are still able to msg each other and also confide in each other..i do hope things will be much better between us soon..Im not able to change ur feelings and heart..but you always remain a place in my heart..im serious..Anyway GoOd LUCK for Common test!! JIA YOU JIA YOU!! all the best... =D



IM STILL VERY SORRY BOUT YTD MATTER..




Im not going give up as i continue to keep my promise towards you..

brandz.panguin.

Some things just seems to be ironic ok...Early morning had my parade and seriously this is the worst one i ever had..if i have a choice to choose whether to be or not on wednesday evening..i wouldnt have alr.. If that parade could make a person to hate me to the core, I wouldnt even wanna it anymore k... I had to do it..is just for THE BLOODY SAKE OF DOING IT.. NOT COS I WANTED it..ytd when i read it..my heart sunk really badly..I immediately called my sir to ask for withdrawal but HOW THE HELL am i going to do that when its going to start in like 23HRS?!?!?! Those words in the first line(I wish i hadnt known you..) Really hurt me badly k..

When those words link back to the past..it may not affect you..but it does to me k.. I dun tink its really worth it to just break up a friendship la cos of this bloody parade..I DIDNT EVEN HAD THE MOOD TO DO IT SERIOUSLY JUST NOW..when i was doing the slow march..that matter just kept buggig that i almost teared k..haix..Im not trying to say its ur fault k..its my fault not for telling you properly k..IM VERY SORRY k..

IN WAD WAY CAN I THEN MAKE UR HATRED TOWARDS ME BE GONE?? Whatever i do seems to be like a pain in ur ass to you..Does all the things i have done pissed you off everytime??



I know i have lost my importance alr..and someone else have come to replace it..Haix..i didnt know u actually thought i have lied to you about the whole thing..Haix.. Cos of it and probably many other things..i have become ur most hated person..



I tink its really a need for both of us to talk things out seriously la..i dun wish to carry on this hatred and whatsoever till next yr can!?!??! pls..
Im trying my best to give in to you k..i just wanna you to be happy and im fine with it..and most importantly in order all this to happen..we nid to settle some misunderstanding gap between us first..pls..


Haix..really disappointed in those 6 words..

brandz.panguin.

Seriously..i didnt even lie to you at all...If i have done that..i curse and swear that i would have been retarded by now..Why the hell would i be so idiotic to do such things..I really really did ask teacher to put you all in k..But just that i dun have rights to say anything to the teachers..i did propose to put you all in..and Im totally in this whole thing..within such a short notice of 2days!! Not trying to pull myself out of trouble..but im also a victim k..They apparently just went up to me and appointed..i wasnt even given 5mins to think and consider over..And i cant even defy a teacher's order isnt it?? haix..There is really a big misconception between everything..I do have the intention of trying to put everyone into this parade k..Haix..ONLY TODAY WAS MY TEACHER KNEW BOUT ME BEING APPOINTED K..


Just to let you know this..IF I HAVE CHOICE OF CHOOSING TO BE OR NOT now.. i wouldnt take it k..I DO CHERISH OUR FRIENDSHIP MORE THAN THIS APPOINTED PART OF THE COMMANDER THING.. Whats the point of being the contigent commander when it will only worsen our friendship?? ITS NO POINT AT ALL!!


Im just trying to clear some misconception in the air..but i cant change a person's point of view..If u dun believe me..Then i have nothing to say anymore le..Not trying to say anything good bout myself..but Im not a person who have the intention to lie to a person just to make people think that im so important and "ANGEL"..



(IM REALLY SORRY BOUT THE WHOLE THING)




Im really very sorry if u think im like that...

brandz.panguin.

Haix..i dun like the assembly morning everytime..have to sit at the parade square!! Haix..wanna go back to the old form where we get to go straight to our classrooms!! Thats so much nicer..
Today went to school..went to the parade square..that someone was nowhere in sight..haix..really depressed..Then during english lesson..was kind of boring as we just did comprehension..really feeling very weird without the presence of that someone..feeling very listless..

School days just went on as per normal..Feeling very depressed now..


Something are just not meant to say it out..Haix..




Sheep...Take care!! jia you jia you for ur Common test and ur piano exam k!! Im sure u can do it well de..ALL the best k!! GOOD LUCK.. Stay happy always!! =D

brandz.panguin.