8:01 AM
Aite currently at Yc house..Tmr have to go straight to yishun town sec school for some crap..Really pissed off.. Had some meeting with the officers at inter around 6.30pm.. Omg..Really fucked up by what they planned for the camp?? DO WE STILL LOOK LIKE COMPETITORS TO YOU?!?!?!? WHY CAN'T WE JUST BE TRANINERS?? Omg..after what i have heard what is going on..I really dun feel like going anymore?? The way officers are doing is fucking pathetic seriously..WTF!! Today first thing in the morning..had Biology spa practice..Seriously, i got a hunch that im not gonna do well for it..Cause its like how am i going to finish up everything in 45mins?? Cutting of potatoes and mixing solutions.. =.= Couldnt finish it in time.. Urgh.. Worst of all, I would like to ask everyone what is the best thing about PE?? Isn't it about playing and have fun instead?? Ran three rounds and played soccer, which is just all bout passing here and there?? Why can't we just play floorball?!??!? Shall end her for now.. I love you..brandz.panguin.
Signed Off @ 8:01 AM
5:37 AM
Wondering..
Wohoo!! Short post again~ Today wasn't really good day for me..Due to many things happening lately.. Aite..Yeap, praying hard tmr would be a better day for me..
Went Bukit Timah nature reserve..Kinda of hot..But had some great times..
Shall end here..
The moment i look at you in the eyes, my feelings became stronger.. I dunno..Even though i believe u have someone else at heart and im supposed to give up.. apparently, I just can't let you go..Its too difficult..I have been drowning myself in homework to distract myself..But i can't.. I love you __ ____ :) Ever since the gap between us grew further, Things won't aint as good as last time anymore..U were the one brought joy into my life.. brandz.panguin.
Signed Off @ 5:37 AM
4:51 AM
Miracles won't happen anymore..
Aite, Shall keep it short again..
Yeap, Today had PE..Omg!! Why can't we change our teacher?? Had to run 3rounds after that, then can play FloorBall =.= Hahaha..Played with 4E3..It was like so difficult to play when there's so many people on the court..
Worst of all, today had that Biology which Super freaking sudden can?? Saw the paper and my eyes start to come out..CONFIRM FAIL!!
Shall go study le..
Aite..I believe the promise which i made last time won't be able to come true anymore..things have changed..People feelings have also changed too..Im just hoping for a glimpse of hope..I think she have feelings for someone else already.. I doubt that the outcome of my promise wont look too good anymore.. Even so, my feelings still remains as it is.. ILY.. :) brandz.panguin.
Signed Off @ 4:51 AM
4:22 AM
Is worth it??
Aite..After this, shall go and do my homework..and study..
Well..i dunno what the outcome is gonna be anymore..I dun wish to think bout it.. Why am i not mentally prepared?? No matter how many times i tell myself to face it..I still cant do it well..If the outcome is positive, how much is that possibilty?? The moment i think what will happen, Im just...
If im able to carry out my promise till the end, how will it turn out to be?? Worse?? I really wanna ask u question, but after asking..I still dun have that mental prepared to take the blow of whatever it is supposed to be..
The promise will still stand high..
brandz.panguin.
Signed Off @ 4:22 AM
1:40 AM
Why do u have to change?
Yeap, gonna keep this post short..
Today morning had to go HQ with juniors for some talent time..Didnt participate..hope my juniors will be able to qualify for it..And they will be able to perform during zone presentation..God, pls bless them..Had lunch with Yc and Botak at MS..Took a bus home..I bet i was sleeping like a log in the bus..
Studied finish Physics..Yeap..Later shall continue with Geog..Homework still haven finish yet!! Urgh..Feel like sleeping too..
Ever since some stuffs happened, things have changed..Im probably the cause of most of it..Really regretted what i have done..If things didnt changed, i believe everything to me right now would be full of colours and happiness.. But that's just a wishful part of my thinking.. No matter how much i yearn for it to happen, It doesnt seem to work..When will there be a miracle for me?? No matter what the outcome is, Or whoever u like, My feelings still stay strong.. brandz.panguin.
Signed Off @ 1:40 AM
9:20 AM
How things are supposed to be?
Yeap, OMG!! its like 1.21am.. Had to go to HQ with my juniors for some crap thingy!! Urgh..So pissed off..Just because im the training head, does that somehow mean i must do most of the stuffs?? I have already done my part..And things aint right!! U know whaat?? Im just being sandwiched by what my CCA wants and what my parents wants!! Urgh..Sometimes, seriously..i have no mood to come back home anymore..They said i am putting TOO MUCH commitment in my CCA and is affecting my academics!! But WTF?!?! I can only step down in April can?!?!? Im beginning to hate people now..I dun wish to say..But the way some people Talk, i cant take it..Is that tone and manner u talk..OMG!! In the past, it wasnt that bad..But lately, Its just like so Irritating to hear some ppl talk..I cant take it..Though i may not say out verbally, Im really angry in my heart..Haix, i myself know that my academics are much more important!! But how can u let just let go of my CCA part!! Im sick of answering questions bout CCA and Academics!! I NEED A BREAK FROM ALL THOSE CRAP!! STOP IT!!
Omg..yesterday i spent so much time doing much of my homework, was much much more productive than other days!! But still, there is another pile of homework waiting for me to clear up!! And next week, u wouldnt wanna know!! But i still have plenty of tests!! Monday, THERE IS PHYSICS!!! URgh.. GRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need a break..i just wanna close my eyes..And think of good memories thats all..
Grrr..
No matter what i have done, the present wouldnt change anymore..Cause i believe your heart have moved on already isnt it?? It doesnt stays in the past anymore..I cant force you..But the promise i made still stays..I just wish the best for you.. My heart is still with you __ ____ brandz.panguin.
Signed Off @ 9:20 AM
8:03 AM
Sick of some stuffs..
Aite, yesterday was really great.. Everything was apparently going on smoothly until teacher have to tell my mum that my chemistry was bad thru the phone?!? Really pissed off.. But today, was supposed to come for the PTM right after my CCA..Wanted to actually just listen to what the principal wants to say and go off..Thought he was gonna talk bout poly and JC stuffs..Omg!! Not a single thing..Its all bout " giving a conducive environment for your children to study in..EXTRE TENDER LOVING CARE.." and other stuffs..just for like 5-10 mins...So yea.. After that, went down to parade square to meet Donkey and Hilary..Played some ball and after that, we were like sitting down to share our past experience..Hahaha..Hilary was talking bout her pri 3 life which was the worst.. Probably 80% of the conversation was made from her.. :) Talk bout so many stuffs..Was really fun..we were like sitting nearly the middle of the parade square..until 9pm before Donkey's fater came to fetch us home..THANKS!! The durian smell in the car was really nice.. Aite, yesterday CCA was really bad..everything just went cocked up..Really frustrated with it right now..Dun wish to talk bout it..Oh yea!! Today had chemistry SPA practice..yeap, was not that boring..But keep kneeling down to see the reading..Really painful lor..Probably during PE ba..Was playing Captain's Ball..There was once..i was super lucky..I threw the ball and it went into the dustibin which was at the corner..hahaha..But the team we were challenging, seriously rough la.. Worst of all, Came back home..and got lecture from parents..HATE IT!! Haix, I miss her Now.. __ ____brandz.panguin.
Signed Off @ 8:03 AM
6:32 AM
Wondering if things will turn out well..
Omg..Such a long day =.= Currently having a throat problem now..haix..Most probably its passed from Shawn de.. :( WTH!! When will be the time that i will be healthy again?? im so worried..2010, in one week..i have fever TWICE =.= Now with throat problem..Omg..Hope i will be alright soon.. Today had PE..Did all the conditioning..Past few lessons was kinda aite..but today, i was like super out of breath and weak..Probably im still recovering..yeap..Took height and weight today..162cm!! Hahaha..Grew by 2cm :) Super happy..But still, the no. still aint nice.. Homework are just piling up in front of me..But I have to get used to it..yeap, after this should resume my homework..But my eyes are trying to shut..I'm really tired..My body seems tired now..Cant move so much.. TMR STILL HAVE CHEMISTRY TEST!! AND NEXT WEEK, ITS THE BEGINNING OF CLASS TESTS!! Ahh!! Shall go continue with my work. (Someone important to me) : If u have feelings for someone else already, I wonder how im gonna face it..Will the outcome i faced be positive or negative?? I hope for a miracle.. 好想念您brandz.panguin.
Signed Off @ 6:32 AM
1:49 AM
Down with regrets and fever..
Didnt go to school today:( Was having a high fever yesterday..It was from 37.9 to 39.7 Really bad headache.. Aite shall not talk bout it.. Regretted not coming to school today.. Wasnt able to see you today :(I believe i know when to separate both studies and other matters.. The promise that i have said..would it turn out positive or negative?? I hope there would be a miracle.. brandz.panguin.
Signed Off @ 1:49 AM
6:44 AM
wonderful celebration :)
Let's talk bout yesterday first..It was the CCA orientation day!! And also HO YANG BIRTHDAY!! :) Hahahaha..Yeap..Yesterday, everything was time constraint..but fortunately everything still went on smoothly..rushed back home..took a bath..and went straight to school again..Bringing the Little Tigger to school too for BRENDA!! Hahaha..supposed to give her for her 2009 birthday..And once again, congrats to her for getting the o lvl results that was above her expectation!! :) Yeap..Supposedly, all my three cca teachers are practically maming everyone confused..One say must fall in 3pm, another one at 4pm..last one say actually dun need so early.. =.= wth, make us rush here and there.. Supposedly, we wanted to celebrate ho yang birthday before the cca orientation but no time so in the end, after everything..then here comes her wonderful birthday moments:) once again, Happy Belated birthday ho YAng!! May your wish come true..And pass ur o's with flying colours..Stay strong and healthy:) Reached home around 11plus.. Aite today!! Just finished most of my homework..left with chinese.. Yeap Yeap!! Woke up like 9.30 just to watch Doraemon (Hahaha..im still a small kid at heart..) Whole body was aching..Supposed to go school physic spa remedial..but in the end, cancelled..so yea..Waited till 1plus..before going out..Went to bishan CCC..to collect my scholarship award.. OMG..Seriously, Its really boring can!! See the same old MC talking..Very bored..I apparent almost went into my lalala land..Luckily this yr, it not in KCPSS..or else, there will be performances going on..Wasting alot of time!! About 3 plus, finished..Went to J8 to get my new bag!! ZINC!! Yup.. Currently want to study..but dunno which subject=.= So yea nvm..Shall slack around for awhile more..Bye people!! brandz.panguin.
Signed Off @ 6:44 AM
6:39 AM
What will the day be like tmr??
Yeapp!! In anoother 1hour plus, it will be Ho Yang birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! :) Hahahha..FInally 16yrs old!! :( (see la..im still 15 only..) Be happy aite..hope u will have a wonderful one!! May your birthday this yr have sentimental values in it!! :) Ur seniors are coming back tmr!! Yeap yeap..No mood to study now..I really wish tmr would be a nice one..No unhappy memories to occur..Omg!! tmr is a really time constraint..SUPER TIGHT.. Nth to say now..just too unhappy lately.. brandz.panguin.
Signed Off @ 6:39 AM
6:01 AM
Working hard in progress..
Yeap, just came back from the sec 1 walkabout..Really Tiring..But last class was THE WORST!! OMG =.= was at the top of my voice shouting at them..Haix...Apparently, though there is a girl who have signed up..but still..I believe not many people will join SJAB..What to do..Nvm.. Urgh!! feeling so tired now..Having a bad throat problem now..After i shouted today.. Hahaha..yeap yeap..maths finish..chemistry finish..Geog finish..but still, after this..shall go study le..cant afford to waste time.. Yeap! in another 2more days, gonna be the cca orientation..from 6.30pm to 9.30pm..Will have to rush home immediately right after chinese remedials..Need bring alot of stuffs to school..Urgh!! haven polish my boots!! OMG=.= Today PE was somehow tough but still able to cope..Hahaha..but long time, nvr run le..so yea.. The moment i think of what i have heard..my heart just seems to sink..I dunno.. Sometimes, i know letting go of it is hard to..But will it be the same or change for the better?? People say patience is a virtue..But what would the outcome be? Change for the better or the for the worse?? Even though i know some stuffs no matter how hard u try, u cant succeed..Will i be able to take that blow?? Im really worried.. The promise that i have made..Im really worried for it..Things continue to change..And would the outcome be what i have wanted all this while?? I hope so.. "Does physical appearance matter so much when u like a person??" I really regretted what i have done.. brandz.panguin.
Signed Off @ 6:01 AM
5:15 AM
Nothing..
Yeap..just finished doing my chinese homework..Really confused what to do now..Some stuffs in my heart lately just keeps bothering me.. Today had physics experiment!!! Somehow it was quite fun poking the needles..dunno why..at that time, quite bored and suddenly not feeling that well again..And worst of all, currently having a dry cough..Urgh!! please end it soon..Wanna be healthy soon.. Haix..Tmr its the sec 1 walkabout..And i have seriously no mood to do anything now..I just feel like sitting there and do nothing..But have to do FAC drills for display..Suddenly no mood to do it le..Furthermore, i cant shout now..Gonna be sore.. Tmr first period PE!! Hope it will not be a mass one..Individual better ba.. One thing for sure is that Things have changed..But what can i do about it?? I have no idea.. The promise that im still holding on to it..I will make sure it is fulfilled..But what would be the outcome? Would it be different or the situation same as now?? Whatever the outcome, would i be able to take that blow?? Im not mentally prepared..I really wonder if things could changed back to normal.. brandz.panguin.
Signed Off @ 5:15 AM
5:21 AM
bored..no mood to study..
Okay!! One week is gone..The dates of the o levels seems to be nearing soon.. :( Im really sitting on the fence right now..cause its like i wanna o levels to finish soon so that my mind can be at ease..But on the contrary, i dun wanna it to come..cause im really super worried for it now!! Haix..im really confused and worried.. Yeap!! i can feel those white blood cells in my body losing to the bacterias..Really feeling very sick now..Haix..I cant afford to break down at this point of time!! Urgh...Throat as though got something there and really weak and cold now..Haix..Probably shall eat panadol later le.. Tmr have flagday..And seriously im really very sick of it!! i hate those people who just apparently walked away when u asked them whether wanna donate..Haix.. Even though i yearn for the past to come back, i doubt it will ever happen..Cause things have changed drastically..i really regretted what i have done in the past..But why wont i be given a chance again? I wonder.. Haix..looking at the situation..i dun wish to think bout it.. What's would be the possibilty?? Shall end here ba.. brandz.panguin.
Signed Off @ 5:21 AM
2:49 AM
Beginning of my doom days!!
Yeap Yeap!! This marks the beginning of my sec 4 life!! For the first time, im feeling very happy to go back school after the holidays..dunnno..probably can see all my friends again..But how i wish now im in sec 2, so relaxed de.. :)But that will never ever come true..Cause that's over!! No more!! Time to wake up for my o's..Yeappp..today had that humanities talk by teacher..Those dates of my o's will be coming in around 9 months!! Omg..really no time to waste already..even though im so free blogging..but deep down in my heart, im so freaking about worried bout my studies..PE teacher changed..Both maths and chinese teacher also changed..urgh..Really worried..Heard that on every friday, after assembly..we will be having chinese mock exam papers to do..Isnt it thesame as throwing me down from 10th floor to first floor?? haix..What's the point of procrastinating when no matter what, it will still happen to me..So Yea..i shall be positive and use these mock exams to improve my ChinesE!! JYJYJY..Not to me alone..but everyone who are taking o's this yr!! All the best.. :)Haix..must change my mode to the studying type le..NO PLAYING FOR ME!! JUST NEED TO TAHAN FOR 10MONTHS!! YEAP!! FIGHTING ALL THE WAY!! Probably shall use com only once a week starting from next wk ba..Haix..SHall continue my anime when its the time to let my hair down.. :)I have wondering one question.."When u like someone, does physical appearance really matter much??" Yeap..shall go eat dinner..and study le..FIGHTING!! :)Oh yea!! I really fanatic over the song"ss501- a song calling for you"!! SUPER NICE!! :)brandz.panguin.
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