The holidays are round the corner..But is it really a good thing?? Haix..tmr got parade..just have the feeling of not doing it anymore..STILL have to attend NCC camp at 3pm tmr~

brandz.panguin.

Today went out to study A maths with Deborah and Bharti..After that, went to Far East Plaza to buy my shoes..It did burnt a big hole in my pocket lor..Haix..

Somehow i heard some things..and seriously im really pissed off with SOME people..they just have to open their mouth just to say some bloody hurting words..Why on earth do they have to be such idiots to say some SHIT words to someone? Dont you know that words can hurt a person emotionally very badly?!??!!??!?! Well let's say like this, what if someone just say something unpleasant to you RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE?!?!? Would you still be very lively and pretend nothing has happened at all?? That's seriously nuts k..PROBABLY NEXT TIME YOU SHOULD PUT YOURSELF IN OTHER PEOPLE'S SHOES!! These people..do think bout it ba!

Haix..I just keep feeling that hole in my heart..It really hurts me alot..Can things be the same as last time ever again?!?!? It seems that im not the person that you confided in already..


Whenever i sit down and think of those little moments we had together, Im really just too upset already..Do things between us have to be totally differently?!?!? Its not that i cant take it anymore but why do things have to be in that bad situation?!?!? Cant we make some things much better?? Haix..I will rmbr all the old good moments..they are precious..



This friday still have to stay in school for NCC camp..Haix..hope things will going on smoothly then..

brandz.panguin.

The LTC has just ended today and my juniors are officially coucillors..congrats ya!! Make sure you are doing a good job k!!

Haix..seriously after some stuffs that happened, I really dunno whether i should go for this overseas trip..Im really too sick of thinking it..Should i really go?!?! Haix..

Im not trying to think bout stuffs but seriously, have i just lost a precious friend that i was able to confide in during the past?? Some things just happened, i really wanna wish to help that friend of mine but is that friend of mine willing to confide in me ever again?? I really wish some stuffs wouldnt have happened..so that hatred and distrust wouldnt have happen..

Is history going to repeat again?? After these few days, i believe some things are sure to happen another time..

Haix, seriously during this few days, i have been thinking to myself..i really miss her badly..probably while she is having fun while im alone at home wondering..Can things be the same as last time..i really do hope too..Even so, why cant i be given a chance to talk to you? i need to talk to you..pls??

If you confirm not going this time, i dun think i wanna go le..Please do really go..I know some stuffs may have just happened, refraining you from going..Haix..i know how you feel..Can the harmonious moments between ever revive again??

Sometimes i really wonder whether you are angry or pissed off with me..hearing from your tone..im really depressed..Haix..Have you forgiven me??

Until now, the feeling just still stay strong..

brandz.panguin.

Haix..all results are back and next week, we will be dismissed like around 12.30?? isnt like so early...hahaha...not used to it..Tmr still have to either go thru exam papers corrections or go to new chapter already..hahaha..super fast right??!

Haix..i miss her so badly.. =(

brandz.panguin.

Haix..havent been using the computer for at least three days le..SO yea..shall post now..
Got back all my results and the most amazing thing is that i did pass my EOY physics paper..though i knew that i was going to fail!! Such a miracle lor..Kinda disappointed with most of my results as they like just borderline!?!? yea..Haix..

Tmr is gonna be another boring day for me..I think i should be at home to stone ba..Must save up money to buy my shoes and pants!! HAHA..time to get some new clothes..But thing is that where to dig out money from where?? hahaha..shall ask my parents then..

Haix..during the holidays..have to go back for bridging programme lor..But worst of all, have to stay back in school till 4pm plus just to teach my Juniors for FAC!! Argh..Really pissed off..But next friday, have to stay overnight in school to do duty for the NCC camp..Hahaha..Only me and YC going..Yea hoo!!

Haix..4 days have already passed..and seriously i miss that person badly..But im still wondering, after this thingy, would things change for the better or for the worst?? Haix..would that person even know? i hope so..

Im just feeling recently that my life is lacking of too many stuffs..Haix..

brandz.panguin.

Tmr is gonna be the two worst paper!!! Physics and a maths..haix..now im seriously not in the mood to study at all..but seriously i need to force myself..I cant afford to lose marks for this two subjects..shall study after this post..the days are just passing by so fast..Hope that i will be able to pass all subjects with good marks..

Haix..during the marking day..seriously i dun even know what to do..Go out?? or stone at at home?? Haix..seriously i just dun have the mood to do things lately..Things aint getting better at all..But wait..

~I want to get my new shoes and shirt too! Its time for a new fashion..hahhaa..One day should go out with nicky to Far East plaza..i seriously need my own room too!!! Cant reallly breathe well with so many people in one room!!! Its like so crammed and i need to study peacefull too!! Am i suposed to study in a small room with so much noises going on?!?!? I cant take it..
~I wanna have my own laptop too..so that if im going to have my room, i dun need to hear my bro typing the keyboard..which is really very irritating!!
Hahahaha..last of all..i wanna get a nice bag!! Im getting a little sick of my converse white bag which apparently turned grey!!
(erm..but first, i have to think of where this money can come from..)

Haix..What i dun like is that..I have to go back to school for bridging prog. for two weeks!!(but wait, probably its still not that bad..)But..worst of all is that i have to go back to train my juniors for FAC!! I doubt my juniors like too..But what to do, we will have to grit our teeth till march!!
But still, should i continue to lead my team to go next year FAC or should i train my juniors to replace my team?? Im still considering..Actually the process in going thru all the trainings is really tedious but it depends on the fighting spirit in each team..So ya..probably will train my juniors to the extent that they shall retain my team, Best in footdrill and Long case..But the first man will have to eat strepsils everyday and drink plenty of water..or else the first man will sound very gay or like old man seriously..cause that happened to me that time..Shall wish them all the best..


Hahaha..im not waiting for my school holidays to come cause i will be freaking bored at home..But im wanting November to come cause i will be able to buy Justin bieber first album!!! Hahaha..really cant wait for it to come out..I bet there are other plenty of people who is a fan of his songs..And i also cant wait for New Moon to come out..Though its all bout Jacob..but still wanna see the Volturis..They look so cool!!

Oh yea, to SOMEONE. Tmr going for LTC already..GOod luck..all the best!! Be careful..Hope things there will go smoothly k..hope you are feeling okay..
What must i do to gain your trust in me again?? pls forgive me..

Yea..shall end here then..GOod luck eveyrone for your last two papers!! All the best..

brandz.panguin.

Yea!!! 2 papers and im done..Hahaha..today shall not study..must rest for at least one day and study for the rest of the day till my papers are finished!! All the papers that i have done..i think english compre, chinese paper 2(seriously..i need help in chinese badly..), Chemistry and Biology..they are the worst seriously!! Did not like those days when i had to study for 3 papers in one day??!! Haix..though im in the exam period, but part of my heart is still thinking of other things..

The list of those who are going Shandong has came out..but heard from my friends..probably all those sec 3 who wanted to go..will be given this opportunity cause next year cant go le me..its an important major exam!!! argh..so fast..Hope this time round going shandong..will be all sec 3..But until now, im really still thinking of whether should i go..If i didnt go, would things there be better?? probably..maybe i should just see on my mood..


Haix..in a few more days, she is gonna for LTC already..haix..Hope she will be safe and sound..Nothing goes wrong within the 7days..To her, be careful during the whole LTC k..Have a wonderful time during the camp ya..got ur juniors and friends going..be happy k!! take care..GOod luck for your exams..


Haix, sometimes i really sit down and think of the past..is there even a glimmer of hope that things may change back to the good old past?? haix..even so, im still holding on to my promises i made..but im still wondering..why do things have to change so much?!?! haix..im really upset..

brandz.panguin.

Okkayy..this would probably be the last time i will be posting until EOY is over..

To everyone, good luck for you exams!! JIA YOU JIA YOU..Im sure everyone can do it de!! all the best..Study hard k.


Haix, im so upset..

brandz.panguin.

Haix..after school, went to Fork and Spoon to study with Nicky, Deborah and Bharti..after that randal came along..So yea..studied till 6.45pm then went home..Super tired..Hahaha..then went to hear some DBSK songs.. so yea.. until now, still haven studied..shall study after i go offline..End Of Year is just 3days away!! please bless me..Hope all my friends will be able to score good marks too..


Whenever i think back of the past, its hurts me due to some bad memories that were uncleared..Things have changed..I miss the person badly..but would the person know?? Haix..Nvm la..Now have to focus on EOY first..I justw anna tell her to study hard for EOY and good luck for it..ALL the best!! Im very sure you can do it..Though your attitude towards me, and towards the others, there is a difference..im really upset..but all i want is that you are contented and happy with your life..that would fulfill part of my wish..SO yea..just know that i will always love you.. TAke care.




GOOD LUCK PEOPLE FOR YOUR EOY!!.

brandz.panguin.

a few more days to EOY!! argh..must study like crazy already...


Haix..i just like the end of the year..cause during the holidays, i cant get to see you..i will miss you..Haix..but now, first thing is to focus on studies first..Other stuffs after EOY then talk lor..Do study hard..Jia you Jia you!! Im very sure you can do it de..Seriously i really miss those good old days..cause things now were so much differently from last time..I know im not even important already..but i still do have feelings for you..like i said, i wont break my promise that i told you that time..Im still wondering whether aint progressing well or better..i really wish things between us can be fine..I need to have a serious talk with you..but seriously, your attitude towards me and to the others, is much of a difference..No offence..im not trying to make things worse..But at least let me know what you are thinking or why you doing this..i cant possibly be kept in the dark like that right?? Haix..anyway now, please focus on studies first ya..Gonna miss you badly.


Good luck for your exams..

brandz.panguin.

Haix..seriously plenty of homework to do..and worst thing is that, i dunno how to do and no one to help me lor!! Haix...

Must study soon already..


I doubt im important to you anymore..but seriously, whenever i look at you, the feeling just grew stronger..I know things cant be the same as last time..i will respect you then..i doubt anybody likes to be forced...I just miss you badly.. i really wish to talk to you after EOY..but in order for things to happen..both parties must agree..Can we have some serious talk after the EOY?? pls.. Im not trying to do things just to make you feel iritated or wadever..just need some important talk..TAke care..Good luck for your exams..

brandz.panguin.

Haix..Probably another 1 more weeks..and EOY will begin..And im super worried cause its like i heard that the English paper is really very diffucult?!?!? Haix..After doing the SS forum, still have to do biology exam paper and english brochure homework..But in like 5 hours including my Dinner time, would i have enough time to finish up all my homework, Forum, and Study Chemistry?? OMG.. I really do hope the time given would be much longer..SUPER WORRIED..

Haix..Is there a miracle that things can change back into the past?!?! If there is, i really want it.. I miss those old days..They are really wonderful and unforgettable memories to me..The memories i had that time did bring me joy and happiness..but as i said, I wonder why good things cant last for long!?!? Haix..Till now, im sure that i wont break my promise that i said to you..

Things have changed..i still really wonder sometimes whether do you still hate me or you just wanna me be out of your life cause im just an obstacle blocking your way? Not trying to assume, but i believed im not important anymore..

Well, let's just say..probably im just an invisible paper..Haix..Let's face it like this.. Sometimes i really wonder is it due to physical appearance that causes things to change.


I do miss you..TAke care..

brandz.panguin.

Exam are round the corner! Argh..



I miss you badly..Haix..
Anyway Good luck for your exams!! ALL THE BEST..JYJYJY!! U can do it de..Strive hard k!! =D

brandz.panguin.

Today went out with Nicky and Bharti to study from 11am to 6plus..

Hahaha..We are talking bout the China trip as though its coming so soon lor..hahaha..



Haix..though u may not appear in front of me..but the image of your face forever remains in my heart..i miss you badly..though my focus is on studies now..but still..at least part of my mind still thinks of you..GOod luck for the exams!! JYJY..

brandz.panguin.

Haix..one more week!! and EOY is there waiting for us..Haix..not really fully prepared k..This Sat, hope that when i study outside..im able to study from 1pm to 11pm..should really try to do that le..Cos once i study at home, i would suddenly day-dream and think bout some other stuffs. That would waste alot of my precious time!! Haix..

This year probably go China, Shandong..but have to pay full amout..Haix..But really hope this time round will be much better than last year..Cos this time round, most of my friends are going!! But im still thinking, if i dun go probably the trip would have been much better ba..So ya, lets think bout it agn..


I just dont like to stone and day-dream..Cos it always reminds me of what happened and i just feel upset..Probably you may have long forgotten it..but i still haven..i just cant get over with it..The feeling is still there..and i believe it wont be removed..It will stay there forever in my heart.. U see..THis is how i think..Last time im probably some "gold"..but as though time flies past, the gold erode and become "tissue paper". Haix, Im really scared cos i dun wish to know things are getting better or worse. If i think its getting better..The worst part will come instead..The worst thing is, once something bad comes, it takes awhile to resolve..but once a good thing comes by, it just ends so fast!! Haix..Some people still tell me that even though u have become "tissue paper", when a person is hurt or sad, they cry and the thing they need is "tissue paper"..But is it really true??

I really do yearn for the past when i had those beautiful moments..Even if i do want it back, would you?? Haix.. I really do miss you badly.. But first of all, I just wanna you to have a happy life..i think that would be nice le..


I really need to talk to you face to face privately, can you??

brandz.panguin.