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HAHAHA!! Im finally promoted and got a post alr..hahaha..so happy!!

Training head - CPL Brandon
Asst. Training Head - CPL Zhu Xi

Foreign Affair - CPL Yang Chung
Asst. Foreign Affair - CPL Khairul

Development - CPL Hui Yu
Asst. Development - CPL Kenny

Administration - CPL Nabilah
Asst . Administration - LCP Hazlan

Logistics - CPL Zalikha
Asst . Logistics - CPl Khalisah

Time for a new change !! HAHAHA..


Apart from my Sjab life..lets talk bout personal life and studies..Today had my SS and A maths test..hahaha..goner for SS..Haix..next week thursday is already my CHemistry CT!! Argh!! Pls bless me hard...Still haven do chinese homework lor..haix..Procrastinating like hell!! NExt week is NDP alr..haix..REally miss those days when i get to eat free ice cream, milo and soya bean, KFC AND PIZZA HUT!!! Most importantly miss my friends from other schools in ZONE 3&4..hope i will be able to see them agn ba!! Still rmbr once when i still owe someone a bottle of Soya bean..haix..unfortunately that wont happen agn..that person have long forgotten me le..Realy sad..Furthermore, this year round in school have parade...but it onlys consists of TWO UG!! Why SJAB AND GB NOT INSIDE?!?!?!?!

Lets talk bout personal life...haix..Things are still not goin out so well..Im really trying my best to make things better but just that it always seems to make people more pissed off instead.. It just seem like whatever im doing doesnt make a difference..but still im really not going give up..Whenever i think of what on that day..i really feel upset..its not something simple that i can let go like that..IT WAS VERY PRECIOUS TO ME AT THAT TIMe till now..but sad to say..it was already taken away from me..I just need to talk to clear some misunderstandings..PLS..haix..



sheep!! Take care..JIA YOU JIA YOU for ur studies and GB!! Congrats on taking over for GB!! Rmbr that wadever circumstances that have happened..must always persevere k!! All the best in being the in charge of (i dunno which one..) Stay happy always!! =D Stay healthy and strong too ya!! =D

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Haix..Today went to school..The whole class was really lack of someone..Haix..The day just went by like that..the time today seems to pass very fast today..

Today went to the Chem lab to do titration agn..was super fun exceptionally today..LOL..

HAHAHA..tmr gonna be my promotion day le!! YEA!! FINALLY!! haix..hope i will be able to get Traning head ba..GONNA STRIVE FOR MY BEST!!! =D wish HP mdm will be there ba..


HAix...there r some things that im very disappointed in k..Its just being alittle unfair to me isnt it..Why am i different from others?? pls..I dun wanna this to go on till next yr..All these nid to be talked out..I really feel very hurt now k..I am neither blaming or getting angry with you..But can things get better soon?? I dun feel good like that..i believe u do not want that too isnt it?? Haix..pls..i really wanna settle this..can?? Haix..




Sheep!! HOPE you will get well soon k!! Drink more water and rest well k..Sleep early ya..Do take medicine ya..SLeep tight and sweet dreams..Jia you Jia you for ur studies!! TAke care..Stay happy always!! Wish you to be healthy and strong agn k!! =D

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Haix..THINGS ARE JUST TOO UNFAIR IN THIS WORLD..Seriously..it seems as though i have lost everything..Haix..Im really feeling lost and troubled now..I may seem to be happy but in actual fact..im not at all!! Things are not going so well for me these few days..

Im just trying to hold back my tears everyday k..IM STILL PERSEVERING!! I wanna it to be somehow much better and not to cause more trouble instead..Do i always do the wrong thing?? Everytime i try to do it in a better way..it doesnt seem at all..Seriously i wanna solve this burden now and not carry it till next yr..It may not affect others but it does happen to me alot..HOW THE HELL AM I GOING TO BE HAPPY WITH ALL THE PROBLEMS NOT SOLVED..Haix..


Promotion parade..Pls bless me that i will posted to the traning department.. =(



SHeep..Take Care!! Sleep early k..Jia You Jia You for your studies k!! Stay happy always hor!! =D

brandz.panguin.

Hahaha..Im beginning to like piano songs alot..Inspirations just started to come out..LOL...And they r really very awesome to listen to..But in life..im beginning to lose many things recently..

In St john, out of nowhere..i just realised today i have lost an officer who was always there for me when im down..She was always there to cheer me up when i had troubles in my commanding..im really grateful for what she have done for me and my comp team..she always encourage my team till the end which resulted in my team winning 3 awards..Without her..i doubt we would make it through..I still rmbred when i had FAC camp..and she came to our school in the middle of the night..just to motivate us to pull through the tough days..Haix..Those moments will forever stay in my heart..Hwee Peng mdm..I still rmbr u took care of me during the NCOC..when i was not feeling well..THxs alot!! I didnt knew until today that i heard u wanna withdraw from our corp unit..haix..SEriously our FTp sjab have just lost a wonderful officer..JIA YOU JIA YOU FOR UR STUDIES HWEE PENG!!!

In Life..haix..i still rmbr those first few days in Sec 1..where the hatred befall on me..after that the hatred turn into something good in SEc 2 and that really changed my whole life till now..But sad to say..things have changed overtime..and that something good have turn back into hatred now..Haix..The good old memories will always be kept in my heart..But the good things that was given to me last time..i really cherish it but in the end..it was taken by others..Until now..im not giving up to get that back..Things just changed in a few days..U may be happy one day but another day u can be depressed..haix..Probably its my fault that caused all these happened..

I have waited for at least 2weeks wanting to talk..but still i cant..Haix..i really wanna solve all those misunderstandings or troubles that have happened..I REALLY need to talk badly..Probably letting out all ur miseries..would make ur life so much better..haix..im like a damaged ship sailing towards no destination..A lonely person who is hurt emotionally..Haix..


Next week still got so many test..and worst of all..wednesday gonna have promotion parade le..so worried, dunno wad appoinment im goin to get..Probably not Training Head anymore..Haix..looking at the situation..Im really hoping i could be in training department jiu hao le..Haix..my heart gonna be burnt badly..Anyway Tmr still got Remedial in school..haix..A maths and Biology la!!




Sheep!! Jia you Jia you for ur GB and Studies.. TAke care.. Must always stay happy ya!! =D Sleep early if possible k..

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The same things just keep on repeating these few days..but today morning was the only time i felt somehow the best for the day..cos i managed to talk to the person..and i was reli happy but after that for the rest of the day..didnt feel happy anymore..haix..Is my life supposed to be that bad?? ARgh!!

Today had my Chinese and E maths test..really sick of tests nowadays..just cant concentrate on studying these few days lor..haix..i would be slacking till 8plus and start my homework!! Thats really shit k..haix..So ya..We were doing our chinese test when there was solar eclipse which couldnt even see at all..wth..and the atmosphere was like super cold..as though i was in Beijing during November..(Some matter during those days broke my heart badly..Haix..When i always thought of what have happened when i was in Beijing..i really feel very heart-wrenching k..Probably its my fault that caused that to happen?? (Maybe its meant to be like this..) Until now..i still cant get over that matter..it may all look normal..but deep inside my heart..the torn is still there..only someone could cover it back...Haix..Looking fine on the outside doesnt mean the inside is fine too..Haix..If i could turn back time..i probably would have make the whole thing a better one..

Tmr got Physics and Chemistry test!! Argh!! Must do well for it..Jia you Jia you!! All 3E1 CAn make it!! All the best to everyone..GOOD LUCK...

Let's day bout sjab now..haix..until promotion still haven come k!! Grrr...THis FRiday can promote but dun wan to..Its not that i wan the post and promotion..i just wan the sec 3 batch to take over faster!! haix..Hope the committee can promote us by next week ba!! pls la!! not really fair to our batch lor..haix..




~Sheep
Tmr Jia You Jia You for Physics and Chemistry test k!! u sure can do it well de k!! All the best & Good luck ya meh meh..And btw sorry for making u accidently buy one extra more Biology 10TYS...really sorry..Anyway Must stay happy always k!! Always look on the brighter side of life ya!! Take care.. =D

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Haix..Today went to school..kind of tiring and stressed alittle...not really sure why after recess..i have been feeling alittle moody..haix..didnt really concentrate Physics and Chem..and im reli somehow dun understand the topic that well la..haix..Maths, today was kind of boring..so ya..haix..so dun really understand..haix..I have been procrastinating like shit k!! Not sure what to do with myself..Maybe im just bothered with too many things now...

PROMOTION IS COMING SOON!!! But im not sure when it is!! Though this friday got training..but its not promotion..haix..have to do some stuff for competition..haix!! ARgh!! WHen can the officers come back to give us our post and promotion...im super duper excited for it k!! =D Hope i will be getting the training post ba..dun wish to be under logistics or development..I wonder what it will be..haix..My juniors will soon become LCP le..Congrats to them..my batch very difficult to get Double promo ba..Onli 3 ALs Passed k!! ARGH!! Hope i can got DP ba if i do well..Lol..But i know in this world..everything is unfair..WAd to do..Nvm..If its meant to be mine then it will be mine..FAster come friday!! HAHAHA..Secs 4 Passed down alr..but dunno who is taking care of everything..Lol...

Hope tmr will be a fine day ba...Wanna Play Floorball agn..HAHAHa..Maybe its gonna be extremely violent le..Wonder who will be the next person to be injured lor..cos everytime we play..at least 1 person will be hurt..haix..But i dunno how to run fast with my injured knee now..haix..nvm ba..CHiong ba!!! hahaha...

Today Physics test postponed...haix..Still got so many tests coming up lor..and im not prepared at all..can go bang wall le..hahhaa..

Haix..Missing someone currently..haix..Happened to talk to that person onli a few sentences..haix..REally wanna talk to her badly...Im so not gonna give up!!




SHeep..Take care k!! Jia you jia you for your studies...Stay happy always..and i believe u not feelng well ba..Do take care of yourself k..rest well and drink more water k..take one or two panadols but dun take too many hor!! =D If u forgot to bring panadol..u can try to ask from me ba..i always will bring de...TAke caRE!! =D GEt well soon..

brandz.panguin.

Haix..Today went back school for bio remedial..supposed to be 2hrs..but teacher in the end onli taught us for around 1/2 hr..and the other 1/2 hour for our test..The test was quite fine..After was planning to talk to someone bout some stuffs..but in the end cannot..haix..that person must be very busy ba..haix..

Until now, im still slacking like shit..just watched finish Twilight..and it was very romantic and in conclusion..JUST TOO AWESOME!! =D hahaha..once New Moon come out..im so gonna watch it..hahaha..Later at nite then do my homework and revise for my tests ba..Argh!! in another few more weeks..my common test is coming and i must really sit down and sutdy le..cant play anymore...this time round must do even better than last semester!! Jia You Jia You!! Haix..but truthfully i still need the encouragement and motivation from someone..that person just seemed to be very important to me..

Currently..Missing that person so much..Haix..If only i could talk to the person..i would have already been much happier..Haix..


SHeep..Take Care!! Jia YOu Jia YOu for your studies k!! Exams coming round the corner..so must study hard ya!! And ALWAYS STAY HAPPY TOO K!! =D Btw i got you some sweets..

brandz.panguin.

Hahaha..Ytd play FloorBall with my class..Realised its getting more and more violent Whenever we play..At least one person in our class will get injured la..haix..sad to say..I got injured in 2 matches k!! One of it was that my fingernail bled and part of it came out..and the second one was caused by my Pe teacher..hhahaa..Nvr blame him..i know in all games..there is no guarantee that u will be fine..so ya..got abrasion on my knee and apparently i cant stand up straight now..haix..Hope my knee will be fine before My promotion day ba..Cant wait for it lor..very anxious..Maybe i wont get training Head ba..haix..that would be very devastating la..Haix..Wished i would be able to get a good Post ba..hahahha..But i dun tink will have double Promotion ba..haix..So sad..Sjab Faster come back!! Missed it badly..

HAix..Gonna Suffer during Week 4..Cos there will plenty of tests for my class and apparently i still haven Study for any of them..TMr still have to go school for Biology test la..haix..teacher one moment say 8am~10am..not change to 10am~12pm..haix..So ma fan lor..Haix..Now feeling so sleep also..dunno how to study for test tmr lor..later at nite still have to go out..haix..nvm..must wake up somehow to study..

Lately some things have happened but i really dunno when these things will stop..haix..shouldnt bring trouble to others..I try my best to solve it by myself ba..haix..



SHeep..Jia YOu Jia you for ur studies!! Rmbr k..Always stay happy!! =D Take care..

brandz.panguin.

My only friend- Ronnie Day..

There’s this guy I know
He’s not doing so well
And I don’t think he’d mind
If you called just to tell Him you love him.
I think that would help him.
He’s been down for days
And I don’t know what to do
He’s been holding his pillow like it’s you
His state’s so depressing
His room smells like crying

And I know,
He loves you more than breathing
More than being happy.
I know,
He loves you like it’s tearing him apart.

There’s a guy outside your window
With a cracked guitar
And a broken heart
But I don’t think you hear him, though
I don’t think you hear him…
And he’s been going where the wind blows
He’s taken shelter by your house
But you’re not coming out
My best friend says “Believe”

He walks by your house every night around 12
Sits a block away- a safe distance
He dwells on mixed feelings
He thinks about dying.
He talks to himself, but he’s talking to you
In his head you can hear him like this
Through the curtains and window
He bids you good night now.

My best friend says
Believe in everything that you’ve got going on
Just believe in Me!
Just believe in Me!
And “Need”, now there’s a word that you can’t comprehend
But know it lives with Me!
Know it lives.

My only friend is a guy outside your window…

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Haix..too many things have happened lately..Just too many that im really overwhelmed by..What i have learnt today is that i shouldnt trust so many ppl anymore le..cos though they say that they wont leak out anything but in the end..they still did it..haix..HAte that alot!! A best friend is hard to come by..i just realised that..For now, there r only few ppl that i will confide in..but still, i believe everyone will think the most trusted person is still ourselves..so ya..Wont wanna bother bout this stuffs alr..really frustrating..

Haix..today is suppose to be a very special day to me but unfortunately it cant happen anymore..haix..but still, though even if there is string of hope..i will still not give up..this day is just too important to me alr..its too memorable for me..It will always be this date that brings me back to those happy memories i had last time..just too precious to lose..Thinking of those happy memories now..This whole thing concerning bout this date brought a great change to my life seriously..haix..Hope a miracle may happen.. =(

Im trying to be happy from now on k!! I will try to speak up more ya..i cant possibly close my mouth for life le..everyone has a mouth for talking!! Haix..shall speak up more le..cant be an idiot waiting for ppl to talk to me..My goal is to be more socialise with people and strive hard my studies le..


SHeep, take care..jia you jia you for ur studies..Rmbr to stay happy always k!! =D Will buy you sweets as many if possible..

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HAix..another boring and hurting day just seemed to pass..haix..Really wanna talk to someone..but just that when im about to look at the person..my mind just went blank..and i dunno wad to say le..haix..

Learned alot of things le for studies today!! =D but though i learned alot today..but its hurt me when i couldnt even have any communication with that person..if everything were like last time..where im happy being with that person..every now and then i wouldnt be like that alr..haix..maybe its just my fault..blaming it on myself..but i just reli hope a miracle may happen which would change my life..seriously, i dun wanna be an invisible paper alr..its very hurting to me..

Kept telling myself to be happy everyday..but seriously i cant do it..without that person..who is jsut so important to me..I wont give up de!! haix.. =D!


Tmr got biology test..haix..studied alittle alr..but now im using com..im so lazy!! argh!! haix..getting only alittle momentum lately..haven really reached full..CCA must come back too!! Wanna get my promotion and post!! I aslo wanna do footdrill to distress myself..long time nvr do le..surely very bad drills i have..haix..But even if CCA resumes..i still have to learn only first aid!! Cos AFA exam is coming soon!!! WTH!! haix..Miss my CCA, friends and especially __ _____.. GTG..take care everyone!! =D



SHeep, jia you jia you for ur studies k!! Always Stay happy k!! Take care..STUDY HARD but must rmbr to HAVE A HAPPY LIFE K!! =D

brandz.panguin.

Haix..another sad day to go..haix..

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Hahaha..today so happy!! the Giant nvr come..if not keep coming and terrorize our whole class..haix..so irritating..until now still, i cant forget that i was been hit in the face by that GIant..THANKS ALOT YA!! but its onli a short time situation where he will not come..haix..must take these things seriously le..cant take the disturbance everyday..not me alone..but my whole class..Scared tmr he will come back to school..argh!! i dun wan k..haix..but wad to do..for our BEst fren sake..we surely do something bout this de..

YEsterday went to play paintball at Khatib..was shot at the back on both side..super pain now..tink got bruise lor..haix..but reli fun!! but sad to say..it seems to be only 5- 10 mins lor..haix..25.90bucks for 1hr?!?!?! not really worth it la..haix..AFter that took a taxi to orchard to watch ICE AGE 3 with Nicky, Ho Yang, DEborah, Bharti, Randal, Shanel..reli fun to be with them.. =D hope can go out with them more often after exams..


Today went to school..as per normal..still feeling depressed..haix..but whe goin to end school alr..HAHAHa..was so inspired to do my CHemistry..dunno why also..hahhaa..nvm..gtg le..take care everyone!! Depressed badly.. Nothing just seems to be changing..i dun like the coldness..haix..and i hate the loneliness too!! Wad can i reali do uh!?!??!?!


To Sheep: WE will always be there for you de k no matter what circumstances..u have become an important part in everyone lifes, including me of course..we will never leave you in the lurch k!! No worries..Dun think bout that matter ya!! For now, just focus hard on your studies and other things except for that thing k..Jia You Jia You!! Dun be afraid of anything..Stay healthy and strong!! Be Happy too k!! =D We will for sure support u k!!

brandz.panguin.

haix..have to face reality..willing to take all comments le..haix..was been told off that im bloody useless today..haix..maybe im really..haix..super disappointed with myself now..

but still trying to look things at a brighter side..today, too many things just happen..that im practically feeling angry and disappointed..reli frustrated at some "ppl" for disturbing __ ____..










SHeep..relax k!! we will never blame u de!! relax..dun worry about that matter..we will settle it for u..study hard k!! JIA YOU JIA YOU...cheer up ya!! take care k..all of us will protect you from all things no matter what.. =D

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