hahaha..today had my course day 2 and it was super nice..had my MOI exam and i passed!! Past few days i have been using money like nobody business la..haix..but anyway today course day seems to be quite fast..and anderson sec sch got indoor sports hall sia!!! so envy..hahaha..after the course, went to eat dinner with my platoon mates at amk hub and we had a great time there..hahaha..we went into NTUC and used the Flabelos thing..hahaha..all of us tried and it was super funny la..everyone shaking...hahaha..went walking around at 8plus and went back bout 9.10pm..super tired nw..feeling like sleeping soon..tmr still have to go for another course day at anderson..hahaha..hope it will be fruitful one ba..must TAHAN!! oh..today had to do footdrill and i long time nvr do liao le..currently still haven adapt back to last time..was told to be the timer and last time can do for long de, nw like old man sia..awhile jiu panting le..hahahaa..nvm la..i will resume my old self for footdrill ba..very good memories that i will always rmbr..Monday, have to go down to school for chinese remedial and in the afternoon, i have to go down to take my report lor..dunno how it will be..during this holis..i must concentrate on my studies during my free time..but there is also something that i will settle but im still not giving up..To the person i made u pissed off on friday..im reli sorry k..wad im doin on that day is not to piss u off..but just treat that i bought for u can..very sry..im just trying all ways to save the situations la..like i say, no matter what i wont give up easily..anyway now tired like shit..if i lie on the bed, i gonna sleep immediately..this june holis..got two camps to attend la..haix..





sheep..im very sorry...i will still wait for u..sry..

brandz.panguin.

today was a very "good day" in school lor..early morning, my phone was perfectly fine and suddenly during recess time..my phone started to go bonkers la..then that is when nicky and nurul started trying to throw my phone around..kind of heartbroken for my phone nw..cos it has been with me since last 2years approx. ;( after that the phone was able to work agn but in the end..sad to say but it was spoilt after awhile..so after school..we kanna stranded in school so went to sit with nicky and nurul and others..they threw my phone into the air and just went straight down onto the ground and it just separated into three parts..i was so freaking hurt mentally..but anyway i allowed her to do it so nvm lor..currently have to use another phone..haix..how i wish i could get a new phone soon!!
During chinese lesson..kind of fun and boring..we r told to do chen yu and fortunately..al least i solved 2 of it!! miracle..hahhaa...
After so much problems arising..im still not goin to give up at all!! haix..though i heard alot of things from alot of ppl..haix..dunno who the hell is saying the truth..but i wont jump to conclusions for some matters..misunderstandings still not resolved..reli very stressed..now taking step by step for everything ba..haix..i hope the phrase "u reap what u sow" do exist ba..from now on..im not goin to be overcome by words anymore..i must improve my mentality state!!
HAHAHA..tmr no PTM!! cos teacher took mc..so no nid to go back school at 6plus..but i wonder when can get our report books back..surely nt really good..




Sheep..sorry k..im still gonna wait for u no matter what..

brandz.panguin.

haix..i wont give up no matter what!!!
today heard from my fren this and realise its very logical somhow..
ONe day there was a husband who gave his wife 10roses, and within that 10roses..9 were real while 1 was fake..and he told her that he would love her till the last rose dies..hahaha..today in class very hot-tempered..due to lack of sleep and very tired due to the previous days in HQ..







sheep..no matter what..i will always wait for you..

brandz.panguin.

haix..came back from HQ today and this time round was fro, like 0800-1800..and now im like so tired la!! just now watched tv and fell asleep..now then use com lor..haix..next week will be happening the same thing la..tmr still gonna have school and first lesson is PE..wow..super wonderful lor!! haix..reli miss my previous group, LEOPARD..it roxs!!! though now my currently group, ALPHONSE..hahhaha...(dunno how we create this name de..) quite quiet..but i believed we can jia you jia you and bond together more de..hahaha..all the way ALPHONSE!! next week alr have Practical examination..super fast sia!! hope can pass ba..today lectures some were boring..but my MOI is super fun to learn in la!! hahaha..that lecture wont feel sleepy at all..dunno y..maybe too fun le..
my weekends r goin to be burned badly for another two weeks lor i tink..this june holis have 2camps to attend sia..haix..cant wait for 26th june...crucial moment..must tahan..tmr once we go back school..alr start studying la..haix..tiriing..dunno how i will be like in class la...maybe sub-conscious..thurs even worse gonna be the PTM..good game for me le..
Bout sat, also had to go HQ but before that, went for some competitions and we went into top 6..but unfortunately, just by a few more inches la!! haix..SORRY mr rick..after that, rushed back home to bathe cos my hands and legs were in contact with acid lor..hahaha..after that took a taxi down to HQ and everybody was there..those ppl who went thru moments with me during the course last yr..reli relive the moments of last yr..I reli miss LEOPARD..hahaha..
now super tired..eyes r gonna close anytime sooner...still haven pack my bag for tmr and my body aching lor..dunno after so much of exams without touching Footdrill..my skills have declined..suddenly cant stand for long and my hands were shaking when we stand in attention lor..after awhile jiu suan le..must practice le..anyway nitex..sleeping now..cant tahan anymore..if not tmr cant wake up..scary!!






sheep..im reli sorry..pls reply me can...

brandz.panguin.

just had a very busy day..now so sleepy sia..gonna drop dead on my bed soon lor..haix..for the next few weeks, my weekends r been occupied so tightly..that im so tired now!! haix..no energy talk alr..nitex..shall write bout today next time..







sheep..im sorry k..r u there??

brandz.panguin.

Argh!! Tmr is gonna be a busy day for me!! haix..tmr have to meet yang chung outside school at 6am for breakfast la..cos 7.30am in school we will be goin for Ngee Ann poly..and the wonderful thing is that after that i have to go to HQ for course for until 6pm..haix..super hectic la..Tmr is our competition day and we just prepared everything by today from 1plus till 8pm in the nite lor..after that.. Zhu xi, Arabella, Shawn, YC, Mr Rick and i went to coffeeshop to eat our dinner around 8plus..haad fun listening bout his life..hahaha...we kept trying our chemical car but it went sideways instead of forward..haix..but after so much trying, we managed to try to make it move forward!! hahaha..all the six of us including Randal..were somehow acidfied by sulphuric acid..hahaha..now my hand kanna burned by hot glue and hands feeling kind of itchy due to the acid la!! argh..hhaha..wait lets talk bout results, today got back our combined humanities..and i managed to pass..hahaha..but now im most disappointed in is my A Maths and my bio la!! haix..must cheong for EOY and common test 2 le during the june holis..cant slack le..haix..tmr got course sia..now got the feeling of staying at home and sleep la..but on the contrary, i cant wait to see who is in my platoon for the whole course..hope there r ppl that i knw ba..hahaha..jia you jia you!! dunno wad my report book results gonna be like..



Sheep..im reli very sorry k..

brandz.panguin.

Got back most of my results alr..haix..though passed, but still not very satisfied with it lor..
English pp1: 34/60
ENglish pp2: 28.5/50
Chinese pp1: 36/70
Chinese pp2: 49/70
E Maths pp1: 58/80
Chemistry: 70/100
Physics: 74/100
Biology: 64/100
haix..all passed but average..sad sia..and i dunno wad to do for 28th may la..the parent teacher meeting session lor..haix..dunno wad my form teacher gonna say la..haix..must be mentally prepared alr..fortunately this time round, my Eng and Chi did pass lor..ahhaha..i dun reli care bout class position ba..i just wan my results to improve jiu hao le.. hahaha..
Wad i realise is that on this sat i have a competition to take part in but we still haven done a single thing sia..hahaha..tmr after school must do le..so sad..but the worst case is that on sat, after the competition..have to rush down to HQ lor..haaha..must take taxi le..if not no time..die la..this june gonna be miserable..and i have also have a hectic schedule la..busy with remedials for the first two weeks..and during the weekends, have to rush for sjab..and during the june..i have 2camps to attend(both also sjab de..) Gonna be super tired la..must have sugar to keep myself awake..hahaa..and i scared when i go for one of the camps..there will be firedrill and i there will be alot of boys in one bunk this time round..(so cramp!!)
tmr gonna take back my humanities and A maths results ba..so worried lor..A maths maybe not good lor..humantities must jia you jia you for everyone!!

At this point of time, im still persevering..im not gonna give up!! haix..it may seem to be alrite on the outside..but i must still save the situation inside..it was all just a misunderstanding ya..sheep, im really sorry k..

brandz.panguin.

haix..couldnt sleep now..too much just keep lingering in my mind..so how to relax sia..haix..i was told to meditate but will it help?? maybe one day should try ba..now alr 12.45am..hahaha..its early in the morning..hahaa..today no school so thats why can sleep late..haha..
no mood to talk lor..haix..still in the midst of trying to save the precious situation..i will not give up de..

brandz.panguin.

haix..exams r officially over..but wads the point..that means my day will be more boring la!! haix..my life still sucks like shit lor..haix..currently too upset till i have no one to talk to now lor..haix..i not goin to give it up!!! cos its just too precious to me la..i reli wanna save it la..haix..

am i just supposed to wait for the time to come?? but june holidays is alr coming la..if june comes, i will be filled with misery la..haix..pls tell me wad to do can..haix..



im very sorry la..

brandz.panguin.

Tmr is gonna be a half hour paper..VE!!! wonderful rite..but the ppr also start at 10 plus..haix..go to school after that half hour can go home alr..hahaha..but go home can do wad la..so bored sia..haix..today had my chinese paper 2..confirm GG le..just hope can pass with better marks ba..haix..after tmr..i reli dun wan to be stranded down at home la..its like so boring?!?!?! no air..haix..currently just too many things r coming towards me lor..haix..
1. My phone bill just happened to burst till hundred plus..(gonna face serious trouble..haix..meant to be like this)
2. haix..a matter that dates back a few months ago..(just let me take all the responsibilty k..)
3. my studies..worried that im not goin to do well for all..
4. recently dunno why my whole just feel so wobbly la..then very difficult climb down stairs..(hahaha..old man alr..somehow..)
5. hate that feeling bout being alone..(maybe its meant to be like this ba)
6. worrying bout __ ____.
haix..i reli dun like the feeling of being alone..haix..wad can i do?!?!?! haix..but actually..at the end of the each day, most of the ppl r all alone..haix..now dunno wad to do now..just too worried bout __ ____. haix..i reli wan to save the situation..im trying to change it k..but curretly im just stucked a point now..reli nid to find a way out soon..haix..can we dun have june and dec..its gonna be so boring la without __ _____, i have nothing to do except for me goin for sjab and goin back school...haix...if i have 2 wishes to make..
1. i wanna to go back to last year october 2008 onwards and change everything from there...cos from octocber 2008 to maybe jan 2009 was some how my best part of my life!
2. i wanna change one of the days in one of the past few months..
if i can change them..it would be so much better..its just my whole fault..haix..SORRY..haix..gonna out now..bye..take care everyone..good luck for ur exam results!! wad a failure am i..




sheep..good luck too k..im sorry..can we pls talk??

brandz.panguin.

currently no mood to study now..haix..tmr got chinese paper 2..must jia you jia you le..cant bear to fail la..haix..pls bless me..haix no mood to say anything now..gtg le..bye..






there is reli a big misunderstanding between us..

brandz.panguin.

Now left with Chinese paper 2 and VE lor..haix!! still sad and worried lor..haix..I FOREVER HATE THE FEELING OF BEING ALONE la!!! haix..ltr i have been forced to go out to go distress alittle lor..haix..after exams, i must do my best to save that matter man..i just cant let it go like this..its like part of my life now..haix..im hoping all the tough moments where i have to tahan will pay off ba..hope so..haix..im reli trying to save to it la..i know in school...wo shi ban bu dao de..dui bu qi..but i wont let go of it no matter wad k..i may seem laughing on the outside but in inside, im somehow sad..haix..i believe when one's having tears rolling down their cheeks..the onli one sympathetic is ourselves i believe (no offence to anybody k..im just saying..) i reli dun wish JUNE to come..cos i will be strapped down with miseries lor..haix..i dun wan that to happen lor..anyway had my BIO ppr today and its reli reli reli.........DIFFICULT LIKE SHIT la!!
confirm not to do well for it le..haix..next worries is that Chiinese pappr 2 is on the way..must do well for it la!! haix..ENglish..not reli sure whether can pass anot la..hope can pass ba.. E Maths paper 2 seems difficult la but paper 1 still can cope ba i hope..haix..Among the three sciences, biology is the most difficult lor..haix...Physics and Chemistry still can cope with it..A maths hope can at least get some marks for some ques that i dunno how to do ba..SS and geog maybe still can ba..just hope all will be able to pass and got improve jiu hao le..at least its better than nth ma..so cant put high hopes too much le..today maybe not studying le..anyway also no mood to eat and do anything lor..haix..like walking zombie ba..something precious just got away..haix..i reli nid it back so i must save it somehow..no matter wad but onli after exams ba..haix..i reli dun like weekends lor..cos its like isolations days..haix..no mood to talk now..gtg le..jia you jia you..


sheep..im sorry..




Haix..back from yishun safra lor..haix..played bowling with yc and khairul..super fun!! but now currently no appetite to eat due to some matters..haix..

brandz.panguin.

I was sick on sat morning but just recovered from a sudden fever of 38.8degrees today!! The moment i wake up..feeling super hot then super cold..was having a severe headache and serious backache..haix..this always happen in the midst of the exams la..haix..now still having back pain and headache lor..haix..but nvm la..i will still go for my exams tmr!! hahaha..hope my tastebuds will be back to normal ba...tmr is GEOG AND MATH pp2..must jia you!! unfortunately, instead of studying the past 2 days, i was busy in bed covering myself with lots of blanket la..
haix..currently feeling damn upset lor..haix..i trying to save it but it seems to be getting worse le..haix..due to all my fault la!!! haix..do i always make the wrong choice that cause ppl to get angry?? haix..not sure wad to do now la..haix..i caused ppl into great trouble..haix..im sorry..
no mood to talk anymore..gtg..jia you jia you for ur exams everyone!! good luck..



sheep..jia you jia you for the exams..very sorry...

brandz.panguin.

hahaha..today is friday which means that i dun have to go sch for 3days!! hahaha..today plan to study onli at midnite..for now slacking ba..dun have the inspiration to do anything..and no one is at home except me..haix..so lonely..phone also not vibrating..haix..i reli hope it was like during the nov and dec holi..which i was so happy with my life la..hahaha..currently very dull and bored..something just keep bothering me..haix..now cant settle it cos of MYE but after that, hope can try to solve it ba..this sun seems to be a special day to me!! HAHAHA..i will always rmbr all those 10th of every month cos i reli wish its always my special day...lets say bout studies..a few papers r down but looking at the schedule..i do still have freaking lot of paper..haix..but just have to tahan for another 1 more week!! hahaha...today had my english paper 2 and hope im able to pass with good marks ba..anyway im super hungry now!! no food at home...haix..hope some food just appear in front of my eyes la..hahaha...anyway gonna make good use of this leisure time to relax..after that had to chiong for my studies le..and i this june have NCO camp and currently dun have the feeling to go lor..haix..but if dun go, surely cant promote to CP..haix..but if i go, phone will not be available to use and cant msg..haix..I SERIOUSLY HaTE THE FEELING OF BEING ALONE!! haix..there r still course days which i must attend at ADSS and some of the dates..i have remedials and lessons in school la..maybe from like 8 to 12 in sch then after that i have to like rush to ADSS until 6pm and probably when i reach home..i will drop dead on the ground la...so freaking tiring..haix..anyway gonna rest le..gtg le..take care..jia you jia you everyone...all the best with MYE!!



Sheep..good luck on all ur exams k..take care..jia you jia you. :)
U CAN DO IT de!! good luck..

brandz.panguin.

3 papers down!!! English ppr 1, physics both paper 1 and 2 , and SS have finished..hahaha...but still have a long way before the MYE finish lor..haix..19 May is still far ahead of me..and tmr is Chinese paper 1 la..pls bless me that i can do it better than last time..im reli not asking for flying colours but i wanna just to improve jiu hao le..currently reading the compo book.. but my mind somehow tinking bout 10May la..i realised that its Mothers day!! and its also a special day to me till nw!! i reli wanna make all the 10th of every month to be my special day la..it does make me happy la..ahhaha...after Chinese paper 1, the next day will be english paper 2 la..so freaking worried for all my exams la..pls bless me...anyway everyone jia you jia you jia you jia you!! GOOD LUCK...(suddenly have the urge to drink watermelon ice blended la...its super nice!!..hahaha)







sheep..all the best for all ur exams!! take care k..

brandz.panguin.