Wednesday, March 17, 2010
5:14 AM
Repentance..
Im really dumb to do things before i do it..How retarded can i be..If only i had done the right thing..all this cold war wouldnt be happening right now..There's nothing i can do now..
I can understand why it takes a few seconds to lose trust in someone but takes a few donkey years to earn it back again.. Once broken, no matter how much u mend it back..the "scar" will always remain there..
Till now, i have plenty of regrets in my life..i really dunno how to face myself, let alone facing others..
I really wanna make things be much better than now but how am i gonna to do that? That's the question.. I think somehow i really feel like an asshole.. Nahh..
Things between us last week were so much better than now..I dunno what happened..Suddenly that coldness between us began to start between us again this week..I hope it will be different next week..I dunno why things are like this..I hate like it!! Arr.. If only those moments where we talk to each other so happily can happen again..
I hate when good moments just happen for awhile and those bad moments have to appear for so long!! c'mon.. Why can't things be better? i know life is full of ups and downs.. I need more ups right now..im struggling myself thru all those "downs"..
This march holiday aint one at all for me and my sec4 friends..Till friday, i have to attend school!
However, I think its time for me to start studying already...Really bad..
Seriously, only when i see that smile on your face..the day seems much better for me..IMY:)
U seem very different from last week..cheer up aite..
Sometimes i really think whatever i say and do, will it really help much? im willing to help out but....
brandz.panguin.
