Friday, December 4, 2009
Yeap seriously im bored to death now..
Woke up around 9 plus..Met Hilary at mac to study and finish up all our homework..Hahaha..I have almost finished everything except my chinese..Urgh!! i was cleaning up my whole study corner and Accidentally threw away my chinese textbook!! So careless of me..
Studied for hours and seriously it was reallly fun lor..Cause of some matters..Omg..i really feel like puking because of it..Hahahaha..
Yea..so here i am..sitting in front of my com daydreaming..wondering what to do..What show should i watch?? Im super bored..
Things have changed so much..but i still prefer the good old days..Those memories do bring to me a significant value that makes it unforgettable..Im beginning to start to move on with life..
Shall end it here..nothing to do..Boredom is bad.. :(
people all around @ 4:41 AM;
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Its like 00 47 now..Just finished doing both my maths mock exam papers..
And later like around 10am, i will be meeting the bunny to do homework and start revising on my sec 4 chapters le..Hahaha..and i need to burn a small hole in my pocket for her!! urgh!!
Today went back to school again to train my juniors..I think i know the positions of those juniors le..shall release the news to them only on 5th Dec at Hq..Urgh..Hope i dun see some "Notorious" officers there...This sat..hope everything can go well..cause its like the only time where i can train my juniors how to take out trolley bed from the ambulance..Pray hard...
Hahaha..shall do my PT with the juniors..can train up on my stamina too.. :)
After so many things that have happen..i believe i really have to be prepared to move on with life le..There is two priorties in my life now..
1. my O's (2010)
2. Achieving well in My cca
I believe for now, nothing is as important as this two.. :)
I must get prepared to move on with life..hahhaa..shall freeze my feelings for the moment..
Oh yes!! Really shocking to go school today.. My officer celebrated my belated birthday for me!! thanks alot Hweepeng and Yee ning!! :)) Haix..forgot to take pictures lor..Super touched..
urgh..forgot to write two training reports le..Haix..Omg!! dun really have the mood to write now..
Yea..im beginning to learn from others..Must cheer up and live well!! :) yea..i think its time..no point thinking bout those sad memories..
people all around @ 8:24 AM;
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Yeap..Its already 00 14..that marks the end of my birth date..even though im only officially 15 now..
Didnt really do much today..Yeap was forced to go out for dinner..Urgh!!
Really bloated..Luckily no birthday cake..If not im gonna be very angry..Cause seriously i just dun have the mood to celebrate..
The matter still lingers in my head..I just dun understand why it is so sudden..
Erm..the hole in my heart still remains there..but today feelings was much better than those previous days..So yea..
I wodner when we are able to talk again..i really wanna know the full truth..
people all around @ 7:51 AM;
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Probably in about 3 1/2hours time, its just gonna be a normal day to me..Hahahaha..it doesnt just seems to be a special day to me anymore..Its just a day where im finally 15years old that's all..so yea..tmr im just going to stay at home and live with a normal life..I dun see anything significant to celebrate this day anymore..The feeling to celebrate that day is gone..Well, probably i should just know that im officially 15yrs old thats all..
Today woke up around 8 plus..went out at 9 to go back to school for my CCA..Realised that im starting to lose the strength of my voice..Its getting lower and lower..My drills were apparently just deteriorating..probably just didnt have the mood today..
My juniors are really learning very fast!! keep up the good work!! JYJY..
U said the matter was just something small?? It may be to you now..But somehow, the matter is big to me now..apparently within that half a month, I just started to have great feelings towards that matter..but within one day, everything is gone..I cant blame you..I believe there are more reasons in why this matter have to be stopped
..(I really miss you badly now monkey..)Furthermore, i have no rights to make this matter relive again..
Well, i can see that you are better now..Still, i will wish good luck for what you gonna do..
The hole in my heart looks like its not gonna recover..Its really heart-wrenching to know bout the news..
Tmr will just an ordinary day to me..No significance belonging to the date anymore..It will be very empty..
Monkey, All the best for your studies and life..Erm..yea happy birthday in advance too..
Its not all about whether to face reality anot..but just rmbr what was said on 27th nov and on 29th nov..Its really very painful to the heart and shocking seriously..
people all around @ 4:26 AM;
Monday, November 30, 2009
Like i say, the hole in my heart that could not recover for 6 months..was recovering slowly..but now, the hole just grew bigger..And this time round, i believe its gonna be much worse..
Till now, i really dun have the mood to do much stuffs..but today, tried my best to change things around..Supposed to wake up at 6 plus..so that im can meet YC at Paya Lebar station at 8.15am..In the end, woke up late..Rushed to Toa payoh Lorong 8 to have breakfast with YC instead..His uncle brought us to Pasir Ris Downtown East..Gotta to "take care" of some kids of 7years to 10years~
Omg..Those kids were really super high!! At first, went there..Realised that both of us were big-sized to them..Hahhaha..THough they were super mischevious, but still it was worthwhile..
Throughout the day, i kept thinking what have just gone wrong..Really upset..
I dunno whats the reason totally for all these stuffs to happen in that manner..but i really hope you can tell me soon
monkey..I really miss you badly now..Haix..Tmr still need go school..shall end here..no mood to do anything anyway..
Would things turn out for the best?? i really hope so..
people all around @ 7:23 AM;
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Looks like starting from today onwards, my whole life will be changed again..
I thought everything that was planned would be successful..but looking from the situation now, i doubt its gonna happen already..I have no one to blame but just myself..I waited for this week to end, probably to think that something good would happen..But it happened to be otherwise..I have seriously no mood to talk to anyone now..It just happened when i woke up..
I feel damn suffocated now..i need to go out to somewhere to be just all alone..I have no mood to talk now..Shall end here then..
I would always rmbr the day when i had my lunch on flagday..
Monkey, just wanna tell you this..i really do miss you badly..ILY :)I dunno why must things turn out this way?? Its just too shocking k..I didnt even have sufficient time to digest it completely..Im like so pathetic now..Haix..really feeling very hopeless..
Thought the message was gonna be a good news..but it turned out otherwise..Hurt badly now..
The hole that didnt heal for at least 6 months..was just about to recover and now, the wound is much worse..Its gonna be much longer this time round..
people all around @ 2:36 AM;
Friday, November 27, 2009
Omg..What in the world is everything going on?!?!? Everyone seems very pissed off..What happen?!?! Me myself aint in a good situation..Still facing some serious misunderstanding now..
Im really at loss now..
Monkey, im not sure what have happened..im willing to listen to what u wanna say if u want to..Anyway do cheer up k?!?!? Be happy..
I really do miss you badly now..Are you being angry with me?? Im wondering..If u are, then im really sorry..
The spirit of this whole week seems to be dull and destroyed..
people all around @ 10:07 PM;
